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my yearly appreciation post to myself;

happy birthday dray! you made it to 22. you’ve definitely grew into a new man. im so proud of what we’ve done for ourselves. things have been rough this past year but i know we’re doing our best. sunny days are to come. being in the 20s era of life has showed and taught me a lot. people come and go. you lose more than you win most days. but shit man you’ve got your people. you’re loved. im happy to have held on even on the days i couldn’t stand to exist. i’ve experienced so much and i’m so grateful for it all. from heart break to top surgery. you’ve done it buddy. let’s hope to see next years post and reflect on the growth. here’s to turning my favorite number, 22!

4 months post op & 4 ½ years on t

who would’ve ever thought i would had made it this far.

shit did i even think I’d make it to 21 let alone being 22 in 4 months..

thank you to younger me for holding on. i know it was rough kid, but hey, here’s to sunny days.

you’re constantly growing into the young man you wanna be. everyday is something new to face.

you’re gonna do great, keep holding on.

here’s to another year, here’s to all the new memories, here’s to the new and old friends, here’s to me!

sometimes i wonder of how life should’ve been? not like I know what was destined to happen, but more so the possibilities. i wonder what it would’ve been like growing with you. oh the possibilities are endless, always in another universe.

forever with love,

me

i find getting surgery one of the most bittersweet moments of my life. this chapter of my life is something I had only hoped and begged the universe to share with you. unfortunately I won’t get that privilege. as excited as I might be, it’s just not the same experience without you